This is for you Aubrey!

A sweet girl named Aubrey requested for me to do a more thorough review on the 6 matte lip creams that I won from Kamelia Cosmetics. Sure girl! Anything for you. And to be just clear, I will be 100% honest of how I feel after quite some time using their matte lip creams 😉

Okay by the first swipe, the colour is seriously pigmented. The lip applicator though is a bit hard for me to line my lips, it’s not that precise, I suggest you girls wear a lip liner first and then only you apply the MLC. Always, always, scrub your lips or use a wet cloth after shower for a smooth sexy looking matte lips 👄 I love how the MLC stays for a long time and the infused Argan oil feels good whenever I apply it. I have a sensitive skin so I usually can feel the reaction on my lips if there’s something funny with the lipstick, but not with Mermaid Matte Lip Cream! Also, it does not smudge easily. It stays put. Loveeeee 😍 

The cons of the lip cream is, after eating, the colour changes a bit. Especially if I eat oily food. Some other lipstick would get off, but this one, the colour becomes ugly and one time I actually didn’t notice this happening! So embarrassed gosh. My lips look like I ate a sugar donut icing haha. I strongly suggest that after eating etc, check your lips and always bring a wet tissue or a makeup remover to wipe off the mess and apply a new layer! Leceh lah  untuk I to be honest, lagi-lagi bila kat sekolah kan, tak sedar that my lips nampak macam apa je 😭 jadi kena prepare check and betulkan my lipstick. If you want to wear this, I remind you again, bring a small mirror and wet tissue just if anything goes wrong!! 


From the top : Pearl, Nixie, Ariel, Jewel

I love the first 3 shades!!! Can mix & match. Jewel doesn’t suit me 😂 there’s another 2 shades but I gave it to my girlfriends hehe. If you are not a fan of a strong scent of lipstick, this is perfect for you. It has this sweet soft scent, and no you won’t be able to taste the scent on your lips. 

*RM39 each (Instagram : @kameliacosmetics) 

To be honest again, would I buy them again one day? No. I don’t know if it’s just me that’s having the problem after eating because I never had any problem like that with other lipsticks I have. I just don’t like the feeling of insecure of how my lipstick is a mess or not at the time. So yes, I am not sure about the reviews from others, but you can always check their Instagram and see what other girls think about it okay? 

Umm that’s all I can think of for now. Got more questions? Feel free to comment! 

Thank you for reading 💋

The look on her face

I had been skipping schools for almost a month, just right before my 1st semester examination. Depression hit me hard at the time. I started on Prozac by then. I tried to study on whatever I can, and took the exam. Next, school holiday starts.

I became more depressed. No more study pressure. I am lost in my own mind, hiding in my room. I watched movies over and over again on my laptop. Can’t read because it’s so hard to focus. Anxiety and restlessness hits me hard during midnight up until morning, which causes me to wake up around afternoon almost everyday. It got so bad that I had no motivation to get out of bed and shower, for 2 days straight. My mum was screaming when she came back home, seeing me like this. 

I can’t forget her look when she saw me few days later, awoke, cleaning up my wardrobe. I think she almost want to cry. To see the look on her face, seeing me finally getting out of bed, and doing something, even if it seems so simple to you, but so so big to my dearest mum. She knows that I am taking a baby step towards battling depression.

I’m not saying that I am 100% better now. There’s always ups and downs. But at least I am moving on now, trying to overcome depression in every step I take. Just don’t expect immediate results. We’re not robots who can programmed in minutes. We need time. Just don’t get too caught up with time as well. 

So what’s good 2017?

I want to have absolutely no regrets. Yes, this year, to risk everything and regret nothing. 

You know how the events that you’d never expect to happen in your life, such as, a career change, marrying not your current boyfriend/girlfriend, etc, well a lot of that kind of event happened to me in 2016. From Science to Arts stream, from Matriculation to STPM, and so so many more, but here I am. Still standing on my own. 2016 has been mindblowing. All the things that I never expect to happen, happened. Too many bad memories in 2016, but I am glad to say that I learned.