Julianna on Prozac

My second wave of depression has lead me to Prozac. In my previous post, I stated what is Prozac, and in this post I am going to share with you why I need it and how’s my reaction to it so far.

One night, I was crying non-stop, feeling so anxious, walking around my room, and feeling suicidal. I know something must be wrong with me this time. I am crying again, but I don’t know why. Or maybe I don’t want to know why. I have to get help. I need to go to the Emergency Department for this. And that’s how I landed with Prozac in my mouth. The doctor gave me a prescription for Prozac for 1 week. Before reaching 1 week, I was admitted to the GH for 5 days because I had viral fever. 39.5C plus with a 160 heart rate sent me straight to the Red Zone. I stopped my meds for a while because I didn’t expect to be admitted. After being warded, I got another prescription of 40mg Prozac for 1 month. Now, I’m on 60mg Prozac for 1 month.

1st Week of 20mg Prozac (1 pill)

  • The crying stopped
  • I am mostly emotionless

1st Month of 40mg Prozac (2 pills)

  • Having  a hard time to fall asleep for the first 2 weeks. I slept around 4-5am.
  • I have anxiety at night time, especially when I couldn’t sleep. THIS SERIOUSLY SUCKS. I am rolling on my bed here and there feeling anxious plus cannot sleep and I don’t know what to do.
  • Less crying, but it sucks when you want to cry but cannot haha. I also cried suddenly at times.
  • Towards the end of the month, I had a fucking headache that made me not stable to stand and walk. Vomited twice. Not sure if its the Prozac effect or nah.

1st Week of 60mg Prozac (3 pills)

  • The headache continues. I’ve been prescribed meds for it but it only helps me sleep. After that, I am feeling unstable again, and if I shift my head from a position too fast, I will start feeling even worse and nauseous.
  • Sleeps more. Because of the headache and lack of motivation.
  • Feeling extremely happy sometimes.
  • Less anxious.

So that’s how it goes. Thank you for reading!

 

 

I am so excited 

I don’t even know how to begin writing. 

2 weeks ago, I was approached by a website mytrendingstories.com, and they offered me a contributor position for their website. I was chosen to be a writer in their website. Omg why would you choose me. To be honest, I have never heard of this website before. Me being curious as ever, asked a lot of questions. 

Mytrendingstories.com is a blogging website established in New York. They are quite new so they’re finding talented and passionate writers for their website. After days of thinking, I agreed. I will be writing as how am I writing here in WordPress! The website has much more categories, which I can choose to put that is related with my topic. I will be writing longer posts, more specific topic and more content at the website. WordPress is more to beauty and my daily activities. I hope you guys, my awesome readers, would go and visit the website okay?!?! 

For now I am not writing any articles yet as I am learning how to write with the website’s format! I will update here soon when I do ☺️ 

Let me show you a few things about the website! 

Mytrendingstories.com aims to give back the power to the writers through freedom of speech and expression. 

This part excites me the most. Plus with what’s going on in Malaysia, the government restricting writers, bloggers, cartoonist and many more from their freedom of speech, is really not helping. Not cool Jibby. 

The website also have an editor which will be at the disposal of the writers if we need them! Cool. 

Front page of the website



My profile

The categories



Example of the layout. A post that is still in progress 😁 

Why should you visit that website when you already have WordPress??

  • The power is in your fingers. You can choose the category of the topic that you want to read. Saves time.
  • The contents will be more thorough on the topic
  • You can read more articles, learn different opinions from writers from different parts of the world! 
  • The content is not limited! Freedom of speech rules. 

Again I am veryyyyy excited for this opportunity 🤓🤓🤓 A step further for me to engage with broader audience! 

Thank you for reading ☃

Not well


“Aaaaaaahchooooo!”

“Aaaaah aaaaah aaaaahhhhchooooo!!!”

Red eyes, runny nose, phlegm and coughs, and then comes the fever…

Everytime I work, within 1 week I will start getting sick. Tell me about it!! I think I’m allergic to work. Oh doctor, is there any pills to cure my condition???

I had to take a medical leave from work, I texted my colleague that I am seriously not well to work today, as my job needs me to handle customers, imagine me and my runny nose, my hand rubbing my nose every 5 seconds wouldn’t look good……..So I texted her 1 hour before our shift starts and I am feeling guilty that I am leaving her on her own. I tried Whatsapp-ing and calling her but she wouldn’t pick up. Around afternoon I Whatsapped her again asking how did this morning go, and here comes the honest situation. 

Not okay. 

I know it’s not cool to not come to work, leaving my colleague on her own, but I am not feeling well and I tried to tell her that I am not coming in today. I am very sorry but I am not sorry that the fact I really am not in pink of health today 😢  Oh well, life goes on, the situation needs to move on, I did apologize and I just have to focus working!!!