My acne scars fade in a month.

What? ACNE SCARS TAKE FOREVER TO DISAPPEAR. After battling with my acne by consuming Doxycycline for 5 months, I won the battle and I am left with one pimple on my left cheek. Both of my cheeks are now filled with acne scars. HUNDREDS OF EM’.

From my research, Vitamin C is the best for treating hyperpigmentation or acne scars/dark spots. It is available in the form of serum and tablets, so I go for both. At first I bought Hiruscar Post-Acne gel, I’m not sure if it works, the progress is slow so after 2 tube I stopped. Then I bought Hakubi White C Plus supplement. I think the best way to get rid of the acne scars is from inside out. There are many Vitamin C supplements out there but which one gives a rapid result (In a safe way)? I asked a pharmacist and she said yes you can consume any Vitamin C, but she suggest this Hakubi supplement as she gets good review from those who’ve tried it. (The pharmacist is not a promoter of any product btw.) I am also in no way of promoting anything, just take a look at my pictures below.

The first picture is on 9th December 2017 and the second is on 30th December 2017. Ok so less than a month??? You can see the difference on your own. I seriously didn’t notice this until I look at the before picture. I have been taking comparison photos ever since I got severe acne and put it all in an album titled Doxycycline Journey hahaha. I want to see progress.

So this is the product :

Bought it from Watsons for RM90 on promo but the original price is RM122. Yes I also know the name “White C Plus” sounds like I’m obsessed with getting a whiter skin but no guys, I just want to make my acne scars disappear. Also, I am used to drinking 3L of water everyday. Water is necessary for better results, and don’t just drink water because you want it to work, but make it as your routine, your savior, for your own health. I won’t be continuing using this product, don’t get me wrong, it really works, but I am going for a new supplement that is for both hair & skin. Saves money on my side hehe. The new supplement I got contains the same key ingredients as in Hakubi, so I am glad on that part, just that the amount is lesser. I will be reviewing the new local product in a month or two, to see if it works. Hopefully it does from all the great reviews I read!

Head on to my Instagram, @juliannaong to see what my favorite local brand lipstick and best drugstore foundation that I personally tried and love!

An honest review by me, not sponsored, and the results are displayed as evidence.

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Entering the corporate world

I landed with a job in a corporate company about a week after I finished my final exam. I have already been searching for a job through MauKerja website and occasional walk ins, which leads me to a few interviews. There are only 2 reasons I didn’t get or want the jobs I applied previously,

  1. The salary is too low
  2. I’m not the suitable candidate

I was greedy. Julianna is a greedy little bitch. I search high and low for a job that will give me sufficient experience and something new to learn, alongside providing a better salary than the jobs I worked before. There are EPF & SOCSO that will be futher deducted from my salary, I am not greedy to spend the money, but to only make sure that I still have a reasonable amount left when deducted for me to put aside as savings. But I am worried as well as I don’t have any experience doing office work, had I only worked in places like Watsons, tuition teacher, beauty promoter, and retail sales related jobs. Interviews for those job are informal. This time, I prepared my resume a month before my finals end, and I excitedly applied to the jobs on MauKerja website, going to interviews, to only stumble when the interviewer asked me, “So tell me a little bit about yourself.” My mind went blank for 15 seconds. I’m not sure what to say, should I repeat what I typed on my resume? But its all there, so what’s the point asking me again? I went on with introducing my name and talking about my personality and previous working experience. It was short. I think I am doomed.

I went home face-palming at myself, and clicked on Youtube, Google for ways to introduce myself properly. My point is, now that I have learned it the embarrassing way, just a reminder to you and myself in the future, to always do your research because when you think you know enough already, you don’t. A few days later, I received a call from an insurance company I applied through the MauKerja, and passed the phone interview. There’s a second interview afterwards at the office located at a high tower building in the centre of Klang. They told me the interview would take about 3 hours, so I thought wow, this is a very serious and formal company. Little did I know that they did not describe thoroughly what the job I am applying for on the website, as I walked in to being pitched through a presentation that took 2 hours, telling me about a 10 years plan of being their insurance company partner. You know how annoying and persuading insurance people are right? I hate being one that’s for sure. Surprisingly, I was being honest the entire time, telling them how I have zero knowledge about insurance, how I am not sure if I am covered by insurance, or how I never buy into what an insurance sales person sell, but I think they like my honesty. Well I am a terrible liar anyway, so I cannot lie about things I don’t know.

Ok long story short, one day, I plan to enter every office in the BBT North Tower and apply for a job. While I’m at the 3rd floor, this particular office had already called me for an interview right away. The next day, Julianna starts working! I am your receptionist cum admin clerk. I have never did any office work before, so trust me when I say I am blur as fuck and just keep on trying to absorb everything as fast as I can. I wrote notes on Post-It and sticked it on the inside of my counter table until there’s no space left. I refer to my supervisor about anything I don’t understand, including how to transfer a phone call from a person to the other. That’s how stupid I am. It will annoy them I know, but to avoid mistakes I must do so. And I really enjoy learning from her, she trained me well with patience, and never once did she judged me for my dressing, or how I mistakenly called an older staff by her name, (Malays use Kak-female/Abang-male as a sign of respect to anyone older) (watched too much of The Good Wife).

I drink 2L of water everyday in the office, and another 1L at home. I pee for every 500mL I drank. And I have to inform my senior staff everytime I have to go to the toilet, how embarrassing, so she can replace me if anything. A simple job, one of the lower rank jobs compared to others in the office, but a big challenge for me, with many small details to remember, such as asking a Dato’ every morning when he enters if he wants a newspaper, or preparing drinks for when the partners of the company comes from overseas, those details. Communicating has been easy for me, but I still have a nerve wrack for every first time.

Do you all remember your first time working? How was it?

Counting days till 2018

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I have been craving for the Terengganu keropok lekor for weeks but I settled for the usual keropok lekor sold at pasar malam. One day I bought a burger at the Ramly Mart, they sell both frozen products and have their own food kiosk, so I tried their keropok lekor. You know how Terengganu one is different from the usual right? It has more fish and tastes sooooo much better. Guess what! Ramly sells their own Terengganu keropok lekor for only RM6.80 a packet! Its hard for me not having a direct supply of keropok lekor from Terengganu so I’ll accept this haha.

It has been almost 4 months of me taking Doxycycline for my severe acne and I can say I am satisfied with it. There’s only 3-4 acne left on my cheeks, and the rest are acne scars. WHICH FRUSTRATES ME THE MOST. Scars take forever to completely disappear. I am now using Hiruscar Post Acne Gel and Hakubi White C plus (vitamin C supplement) to treat the scars. From my research, vitamin C is the best source to treat scars. There’s plenty of it in the form of serum and supplements, so choose which suits you best. I am happier now that when I put on makeup, the acne bumps are no longer there. I do struggle with dry skin and yes the scars of course. I don’t have the skills to cover em up with makeup yet 😂

And exams over! Phewww. 9 months long break before degree so I plan to work, lose weight, read more, and focus on building myself mentally also physically. We have a month left before 2018 begins, so let’s finish 2017 strong. I aim to workout intensely and do a strict diet, because I want to end 2017 feeling proud of myself. For now I am alternating between working out and eating afterwards so…..bitch when will you stop eating?!

What’s your plan?

Just breathe

Sometimes I question myself, “Why do I stay in my room so much when I can go out and witness a view like this?”

Hospital Tengku Ampuan Rahimah, Klang

Since my paper starts at 11am today, I went to pick up my acne medicine at the GH pharmacy first thing in the morning. Arrive early, empty parking lot. I did this before when I attended my Psych appointments. Just walk around or sit and look at the view from this 3-storey parking lot. Very peaceful. Today, as I listened to Breathe (2AM) by Anna Nalick, one of the songs I used to listen back in the depressed days, this song has different meaning to me now. To just breathe, calm down, and think of nothing else, is such a privilege and a blessing. Nothing made me feel happy at the moment. In fact I am having tons of life problems. But looking up at the sky, as the sunrise, is what made me smile.

When I was in high school, my view from the class was the GH. I can see it clearly from afar, in the shape of Titanic funnily. It is the same feeling as I’m having now, a peaceful view, reminding me how little my problems are, and how life is so much more than worrying or caring what other people say of you.

🎶 Try listening to Japanese Denim by Daniel Caesar

As I Walk By 

Psychiatric Clinic

It all started in the early of 2016. Until the last 4 months, I have been prescribed with an antidepressant, Prozac, for a year and a half. What makes me able to get off my medication? Well, I just stopped going to the clinic. This government hospital won’t call or find you if you don’t come for the next appointment, they’re really packed and cannot keep up with everyone. One day, I just felt lazy to get up early for my appointment, and so, I don’t receive my prescribed antidepressants. I kinda let it go. I’m not saying I am no longer depressed, until today, I still am, and there’s still bad days for me, but its definitely getting better. 

I don’t encourage anyone to do what I did. I’m merely sharing with all of you. I can’t really give a solid reason why I stopped getting treatment. Even I can’t explain it to myself. I still struggle coming to school, having a hard time to focus on doing anything, and sleeps too much. Thankfully suicide is no longer on my mind and hopefully it stays that way. In Malaysia, if you commit suicide and failed, you’d be taken up to court, as if you committed a crime. So, I actually have to make sure I die haha! Kidding. As I stood by the sign that leads the way to the Psychiatric Clinic, it all flashed through my eyes. 

I feel all of the emotion. I had forgotten how badly depressed I was, but in that moment, I remember.

 Always feeling that I’m out of my mind, cried too much at night, side effects of Prozac, feeling of helplessness, as if I am locked away in a tunnel with no light at the end, driving to the emergency room, cried everytime I see the doctor, pushed everyone out of my life, and seeing my education, my life, my relationship, destroyed. Others have it worst, I know. I suffered so bad and I can’t imagine how others that have it worst is going through all this. Looking back, I don’t know what to learn from such an experience. My life is still finding its way. 

let me Grab you. 



Grab and Uber are the talk of the town nowaday. The easy access to using the app, cheap fares, and a thorough filter before you can be a driver for them is what makes people trust in these 2 apps. 

I have been thinking of more ways to make money with a part-time job, and being a Grab driver sounds tempting. I have a car (my mum’s) and ample time secretly (keeping this a secret from my mum- she’d kill me if she knows that I am not focusing entirely on my finals in November). And so I download the Grab Driver app and was quite surprised on how strict the steps to becoming a Grab Driver. 

There are 3 steps, which consist of registering information of your insurance covernote picture, a headshot picture of yourself, a picture of your ID and license, and also an online training which is to watch a video and take a 20 question quiz before proceeding to step 3 (I got 85% haha) . I managed to complete until step 2 before having to go to the Grab Driver Centre itself for a final registration. They stated from the beginning that the car used must only be manufactured in 2011 and above, or else you can’t be a driver. My car passed that. 

I arrived at the centre in PJ, after queuing for 5 minutes, to only find out that my car model is not accepted 😒 the minimum car model is Axia. WTF! Haih I am so disappointed man. In step 1 & 2 I already gave my insurance covernote letter that states the car model I am driving. So if you are qualified to be a Grab/Uber driver, go for it! In this economy, having one job is irrelevant. 

Let’s talk about Kyo- the club 

A memorable and fun 20s. I have long list of things I want to do and this post is about one of it in the list. If you have been keeping up with my blog, you would know that I am a true loner. Clubbing alone? Its not that surprising in other countries but in Malaysia, I am kind of breaking the stereotype by going alone haha! They say, if you want to go clubbing, you have to call up some friends and book a table. True, but this doesn’t work for everyone right? 

For example, if you’re a newbie in your area and want to discover the nightlife, this sounds weird to do. Or me for another example, I don’t have enough friends to go clubbing with. Friends I have, but friends for clubbing I don’t. They practice Islam and I understand that. I have been so eager to dance in a loud music environment and ain’t nothing gonna stop me! 

Kyo/Ren Club @ Mandarin Oriental 

Kyo and Ren is under the same club but different concept. They separate both space. Kyo is for hip hop music while Ren is disco/trance music I think. I Wazed straight away to the parking lot and it lead me to KLCC parking lot haha I was confused for a while but I asked the guard how to go to MO. I walked down through KLCC park and reached MO. Please park in the MO parking lot itself and not the KLCC parking lot. It gets confusing walking from Kyo, half drunk, tryna find where the fuck is my car haha. 

Inside Ren

Main entrance to Mandarin Oriental Hotel

Entrance to Kyo, which is just beside the main entrance


I arrived early, around 10:45 pm and the ushers let me sit for a while in the Ren area. Here’s what Kyo looks like! 



Complimentary entrance for the ladies only! Cover charge for men around RM40-RM60 depending on the time you enter. Masuklah before 1am ok? 

Clubbing alone

You look weird when you think you look weird. Imagine yourself seeing a guy/woman standing by the bar enjoying their own drinks and being comfortable with themselves, does it look weird to you? Exactly, they don’t. So that’s how it applies to you as well. If you feel like wanting to dance, drink, and just have a good time, go for it. Remember, 1-2 drinks is enough for you to drive back home, or sober enough to call Grab/Uber. Stay safe always and be alert with your drinks and your purse! 

There is no free seating in Kyo unless you reserve it first. You can stand at the bar or just walk around and dance. 

Tips : Don’t come too early if you’re alone. I thought there’d be a line up if I come around 11pm but nope nothing. The dance floor is still empty at 12am. Around 1-2am is better. 

This is for you Aubrey!

A sweet girl named Aubrey requested for me to do a more thorough review on the 6 matte lip creams that I won from Kamelia Cosmetics. Sure girl! Anything for you. And to be just clear, I will be 100% honest of how I feel after quite some time using their matte lip creams 😉

Okay by the first swipe, the colour is seriously pigmented. The lip applicator though is a bit hard for me to line my lips, it’s not that precise, I suggest you girls wear a lip liner first and then only you apply the MLC. Always, always, scrub your lips or use a wet cloth after shower for a smooth sexy looking matte lips 👄 I love how the MLC stays for a long time and the infused Argan oil feels good whenever I apply it. I have a sensitive skin so I usually can feel the reaction on my lips if there’s something funny with the lipstick, but not with Mermaid Matte Lip Cream! Also, it does not smudge easily. It stays put. Loveeeee 😍 

The cons of the lip cream is, after eating, the colour changes a bit. Especially if I eat oily food. Some other lipstick would get off, but this one, the colour becomes ugly and one time I actually didn’t notice this happening! So embarrassed gosh. My lips look like I ate a sugar donut icing haha. I strongly suggest that after eating etc, check your lips and always bring a wet tissue or a makeup remover to wipe off the mess and apply a new layer! Leceh lah  untuk I to be honest, lagi-lagi bila kat sekolah kan, tak sedar that my lips nampak macam apa je 😭 jadi kena prepare check and betulkan my lipstick. If you want to wear this, I remind you again, bring a small mirror and wet tissue just if anything goes wrong!! 


From the top : Pearl, Nixie, Ariel, Jewel

I love the first 3 shades!!! Can mix & match. Jewel doesn’t suit me 😂 there’s another 2 shades but I gave it to my girlfriends hehe. If you are not a fan of a strong scent of lipstick, this is perfect for you. It has this sweet soft scent, and no you won’t be able to taste the scent on your lips. 

*RM39 each (Instagram : @kameliacosmetics) 

Thank you for reading 💋